n. firm belief in the ability or strength of someone or something.
How firm is my belief in the ability and strength of the Lord? How firm is yours? Do we remain firm when our prayers are not answered the way we want, or not answered right away? Do we falter in faith when we think the heavens are silent?
Sure, sometimes we pray for trivial or unnecessary things, but more often we pray fervently for the deep and righteous desires of our hearts. When we pray for trials to pass and they don't, it can feel like God doesn't care about our difficulty. And if we do not trust in His infinite love, it can feel like he isn't listening.
Trust. Trust is key here.
When we pray to have children, for someone with cancer to be healed or for another to be cured of mental illness the answer to that prayer may not always be immediate or even what we asked for. But why not? It's not like we're asking for a million dollars, right? God is not a genie. Answers to prayers are not like granted wishes. We pray. We wait. We TRUST. We trust that God is listening, standing with us, comforting us in the hard times and will answer our prayers. We trust that if the answer is "no" or "not right now" that there are different blessings and a in different plan in store. We trust that He loves us, wants what is best for us, and has a beautiful plan in store for us.
We pray. We Wait. We trust. Sometimes we wait for a long time, a very long time. Sometimes, after a long wait, our prayers our answered but not in the way we had hoped. We waited for a family. After 2 years, we miscarried. 4 years in, I gave birth to a son who would only live 5 weeks. 4.5 years and another miscarriage, finally discovering the cause of our infertility. It's been a 5 year journey without any outcome we would have prayed for, but I don't feel like God has ignored us. I trust Him. I trust His ability and strength to heal our hearts every time they break and to answer our prayers in time. I trust Him, because through every hard thing He has stood with us, sent angels to lift us, promised our angel children to us, blessed us during every struggle. I trust Him, because, even when I have failed to trust Him, He has never left me.
In a moment of weakness, forgetting to trust in ability and strength, I came across this powerful scripture:
Yea, and how is it that ye have forgotten that the Lord is able to do all things according to his will, for the children of men, if it so be that they exercise faith in him?
Wherefore, let us be faithful to him.
And if it so be that we are faithful, we shall obtain promise; and know at some future period that the word of the Lord shall be fulfilled.
1 Nephi 7:12-13
Pray. Wait. Trust.
Be faithful. Have a firm belief in his ability to fulfill His word and in His strength to heal your heart.